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Inspired by Bieksa

I decided to openly speak about my personal struggles with mental disorders and it’s mostly because of watching Kevin Bieksa speak about it. This post is really personal and it took a lot to write it so if you’re going to judge then please just keep scrolling and ignore it. If not though click below and thank you for reading ♥

After watching Kevin Bieksa speak about Rypien and express his support for those with mental diseases it prompted me to write this to speak about my own personal struggles with depression, bipolar disorder, or manic depression, and ADHD.

I have been receiving treatment for the three mental disorders I mentioned above since I was seventeen but that was after years of keeping it all to myself and trying to cope with it on my own. I didn’t want to talk about it because I was always known to be extremely happy and whenever I mentioned anything about thinking I had problems focusing to my parents they’d just wave it off and say it was all in my head. It wasn’t until my senior year that I finally had a breakdown and cut myself in an attempt to make myself feel something. After a few weeks of secretly doing it I told my best friend and she dragged me to the grievance counselor and she immediately called my parents and set up a meeting with them so we could tell them about this together. Not only that, but also to tell them how serious this was and that it wasn’t something they could ignore anymore. I started seeing a therapist the very next week and she referred me to a psychiatrist who I have been seeing ever since.

I take different medications that help with the chemical imbalance in my brain and they really help. Whenever I would stop taking them I’d have manic episodes where I was going out every night, doing drugs and not giving a shit about anything. By doing all that I was hurting myself and after being threatened with being sent to a crisis center I pulled my shit together and got back on my meds. I’m doing great in school and I’m happy.

I also use different therapies like light therapy, which I do through tanning. The brightness really does help put me in a better mood. I also write a lot of stories and use them as an outlet to get my emotions out.

Hockey has been a huge factor in my happiness as well and it’s one of the biggest reasons I was so touched by Kevin’s dedication to educating people on these disorders.

This is probably the most personal post I have ever shared on here and it may reach a lot of people or none at all but either way writing this has made me feel good and I can only hope it does help people get a better understanding of all of this and realize how serious these disorders are and the support those that suffer need from their friends and loved ones.

If you suffer from a mental disorder and have been afraid to speak up about it please do because keeping it to yourself isn’t going to get you anywhere. If you want advice I’m here to give it and if you just want to talk I’m here to listen. Anon or not, I’m here to help.
Be sure to check out mindcheck.ca and look around to get better a better understanding on all this and if you haven’t watched the videos of Kevin you definitely should.

You can watch the video of Kevin speaking about HERE

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♥ Jan 25th at 6PM / tagged: Personal. Kevin Bieksa. Vancouver Canucks. Depression. Bipolar Disorder. Manic Depression. ADHD. / reblog / 29 notes